Hey Reader! I hope your week is going well so far. How has 2021 been treating you?

Feel free to start up a conversation in my inbox to let me know. Would love to hear from ya.

Anyway, I'm keeping this week's email simple with a little life update and inspiration for you to take in as you progress through the rest of the week.

Life Update

I've officially been residing in LA for a month as the start of my 6-month digital nomad journey and everything is going perfect so far!

Just kidding. You know I prefer to be honest with you, so I'll tell you how I'm REALLY doing. Here's the truth.

This journey has been extremely fulfilling, but also incredibly difficult.

Some days are filled with nothing but joy and gratitude as I explore new sights and meet different people, but other days are filled with negative voices that cloud my mind and deplete my energy - sometimes to the point where motivation to literally do anything has completely exited my body.

Over the past week, It's been difficult to determine why.

Why am I on a roller coaster of ups and downs? I mean, this new journey is beyond exciting...so what's with all the negative feels half the time?

Here's what I discovered.

Yes, I'm on a path of exciting new beginnings.

But I'm also on a path of solitude - an expected norm when deciding to live the nomad life.

And that, in itself, can come with a ton of baggage.

Many of us are aware of what solitude feels like when the pandemic first hit, right?

Solitude leads to feeling lonely. Loneliness leaves you with your thoughts. Your thoughts tend to spiral in a thousand different directions. And those directions leave you with a list of choices.

And those choices? Well, they can be hard to make.

I realized that my ups and downs were deriving from the fact that when making choices, I was coming face to face with my truest self.

The strong, courageous woman inside me.

And the scared little girl that still exists within.

And those two women that are both me? They battle each other. Especially in moments of solitude.

Choosing what to do and how to do it. What to let go of and what to keep. What to heal from and how to heal from it.

1,000 different thoughts.

100 different choices.

2 parts of me both courageous and scared.

And 1 mind that get's bombarded with it all.

Inspiration

But here's the question, Reader... isn't this life? Don't we all face this to a certain degree?

We get brave, yet we get scared. We get confident, yet we get insecure. The cycle continuously repeats and we become overwhelmed with how challenging this roller coaster ride can be.

When will the ride end? Can we ever get off it?

well Reader, I believe we can. But it's going to take work. Tons of internal and spiritual work.

There's no quick fix. There's no sudden solution. There's no amount of external successes or excitements that will get us off that rollercoaster in the long-run.

You running your own 7-figure business? That's great! But I bet you'll still be on that roller coaster.

Me traveling the world? Wonderful! But I bet I'll still be on that roller coaster, too.

Unless we do the hard stuff. That internal work.

Any new journey we take is at first bound for a road of adrenaline-pumping optimism. Why? Because we're literally taking an idea that formed in our ambitious mind and emancipating it - AKA making it possible for that idea to exist and thrive in the real world.

But what happens when that adrenaline dies down and those negative voices cloud your mind again? You know, voices that tell you:

• I'm not good enough
• I can never get my business to where I want it go
• I'll never be able to clarify what I really want do with my life
• I'll never find my soulmate
• I'll always feel stuck

We have to target thoughts like these so we can focus on letting them go in a healthy manner. We have to dig deep and pull up the uninvited roots that have been present for years. Here are some questions to ask yourself to help kickstart that internal work:

• What grudges are you holding against what people, and why? Let it go, and work towards forgiving them.
• What childhood traumas have been triggering you and therefore affecting the way you act or respond in your daily relationships? Dig deep, and work towards healing.
• Who's approval do you seek? Let it go, and work towards finding your worth in God alone.
• What habits are no longer serving you? Drop them, and work towards implementing healthier ones.

I hope you'll be on a journey with me on doing that internal work so we can get off that roller coaster and start living a life of consistent joy, gratitude, and undeniable worth. And let's not forget to enjoy the present moments while we're at it, too.

I'll leave your inbox with a quote that I always say to my one on one students:

So focus inward, Reader.

And remember, we're all in this together. (High School Musical pun not intended but hey, I had to keep that line in here to get even just a little smile out of ya).

Until next time!

Much love,

Angel Marie

P.S. if you'd like to follow my travel journey, feel free to join me on Instagram!